Memorable Assignments in Fourth Quarter 2022

I only have two assignments to talk about because these tasks are so hard to finish that I started to doubt my capabilities as a student.

The first one is my research. We did this research for almost a year and doing the thematic analysis was so hard that it took me almost a week to validate my data. I'm very glad that in this last quarter, the remaining parts of the research are easier. My research is finished and I'm contented with it. We have to take a video of ourselves presenting our research and I have to go through that with my lip gum wounded. I can't talk properly without making a funny face so I just endured it even in my defense. I was relieved when it was announced that we will only have 5 minutes each. When my scheduled day came, I was supposed to be the 2nd student to defend my research. However, the first presenter's computer decided to have a technical problem so I could go first (I'm salty because now that I'm first, I have no idea how the flow will work). I actually thought that they will ask difficult and continue to roast me until I have nothing to say. My defense went well thankfully. Still did not deserve my trembling cold hands and stomach aches. I only realized that I have these symptoms when I'm really nervous.

The second one is my business plan. Unlike the first one, this is a group project so I expected that it will be less stressful. But our teacher gave us two weeks to finish it. I kept ranting in our house that we can't make it that good because real entrepreneurs take months or years to formulate their plans. Our business plan will be vulnerable in defense because it is rushed. Then the teacher kept changing the scheduled date or whether it is F2F or online, the teacher didn't have to play with our emotions like that. I was so sad and worried for my groupmates that I got sick before the defense. Not all of us are fortunate; 2 of my groupmates are working students, 1 gets sick easily that can't travel, and 2 of us get sick on the day of defense which makes it only 1 student who can go to school. We conducted a poll before and the majority voted online but the teacher wanted face-to-face defense. Why make a poll in the first place? I got really frustrated, good thing I have my groupmates who have the same thoughts. It is very unfair to us. The defense day came, and I did not get overly nervous even when we are the first ones to present. I just want to end my suffering. I did that from morning to midnight, every day, I want it to stop. This experience is haunting it will probably remember it on how I pushed myself just to make our rushed work at least presentable.

Our class ended a month ago and we graduated this month. I will be facing new challenges again because next month is the start of our classes. Of course, I will write about my experience to immortalize the memories whether it is good or not. I'm both excited and nervous on what is about to come and when things get tough, I hope I can look back and see how far I've come.